this should be a part of mid-life crisis :-)

I felt tired today ,I have done lots of physical and mental labors. I even thought of leaving this kind of life behind and find my future in a new space. yesterday I know the girl who I have loved deeply when I were in college are in north America ,though I am not sure whether she is in Canada or US, :) there have happened many things , maybe we are not changed while our environment have changed , :) who knows? maybe people who lives in China is not easy after all, or maybe I shall be composed, adjust myself and deal with problems well. to earn my bread ,to eastablish a family ,I need to offer something to society, I need do well in my post ,that's it.