new beginning for me

A week ago, I bought a notebook, although I can not install linux OS into the HD, and I had no choice but install the widely used windowsXP, I love it anyway. With this notebook ,I will surely improve my working efficiency. Good Luck.
Mr. Yang helped me connecting the notebook to wlan access point installed within the building of our company, which is great. It means I can receive and send email in my office now , great!

on wedding

why so many wedding repeated again and again in the same way?
is each groom and bride really enjoy the procedure?

I think we should keep our dignity in all situations. we should have a light heart in wedding , meanwhile don't forget to keep your dignity. it can works.

Jack is very interesting

Jack is special, I definitely think so. he is always showing his prudence and carefulness to every details. he belongs to the category of people who care much to the overall situation.
I need explain why we are going to give up the devil 417192, I must consult this to Mr. Wu and the person who are working in tools& setup department and quality department first , only when they either have no other better proposal or suggestion , will I be permitted to reply to EATON formally by email and tell them what is our attitude for this core plate. Jack, you are right! thank you .

today is great

I learned several concepts about statistical mechanics , it is great.

the girl whom I once deeply loved got married（为了忘却的纪念）

it is really a long story for me , I don't know whether she cares much about this feeling I always have.
I met her when I was 18 in Hubei Normal University , she should be born in that city and grew up there, the city is not an very ideal place for living , but she lived in a developmental zone far away from our college where the environment was awesome , I used to like going there by bike after recognizing her parents lived there , that area was called TuanChengShan .
It was really unbelievable that I didn't even notice her existence until it was my second year of living and studying there. I don't remember from what time I began to pay attention to her, maybe I hadn't any feeling at first , but I fell in love with her around 1998 , she didn't know at first , and I believe she didn't love me , I am too stupid , but who can blame a person who was in love, loving somebody is always an unexplainable phenomenon, it happened only because there was some kind of chemical reaction involved, one rational person could lose his common sense then. I was exactly that unfortunate person at that time . I cared much about her , I cared about everything about her, I wanted to know what was her thought about me, I hoped she could go out with me , I felt really blue when she denied my invitation again and again. I hoped that I could do something that could make her appreciating me ,love me even just a little bit. she was the heroine of my diary during that period of time. my whole heart were just beating for her. what I got was denial ,once , the second time , the third time, ......, again and again. maybe she punished me because I had once told another girl that I LIKE that girl , maybe she thought I was not active enough.
after our graduation after summer of 1999, we departed , she went to GuangDong and became a teacher in a private school there, I went to XianTiao PengChang and became a chemistry teacher. I thought she was forgetting me , I told myself I should forget her as soon as possible, but her image lingered and I was just unable to wipe her image out from my brain. I became delirious , I felt painful when I did almost anything due to the inescapable thinking of her and the deep sadness of being aware of the indifference from her. It was a nightmare for me during that wretched 2 years. I wrote several letters to her, and she replied to me several times, but I could tell that she didn't care too much about me, every time I received a letter from her , I replied to her immediately ,then wait a long time wishing I would receive her letter soon, but it didn't happen . At last I burned my diary and quit the job of being a teacher in Pengchang . I didn't know what I would do next, what I was sure of at that time was that I was definitely painful , if I continued living like that, I would be a mad man in the end.
life is not easy for everyone who is living in China . don't dreaming all days, open your eyes to see and live in the reality!
After I returned to my hometown, ShiYan , I thought naively that I would became a teacher in a school and resumed getting my salary every month. the fact was that I never became a teacher after March,2001 .
I once got an opportunity to work in Guangzhou, this city was attracting me , she lived there , she was the magnet. I also wanted to work there to improve my oral english , she was also very good at english, she is living in US now. the opportunity of practicing speaking would much more there, so after a period of time preparation, I went to Guangzhou in sumer of 2001, I finally got a chance to meet her again, I just want to be closer to her, I just want to be with her. I kept on working there in a hotel very busily, almost 7 days a week, I was satisfied that I and she were living in the same city ,experiencing the same weather, isn't it fantastic?
my job in that hotel couldn't last long, finally I must say good-bye to this city, but I hadn't even met her yet! I had to see her before my leaving. I asked for one-day leave , and went to the school where she was working , and I didn't told her that I would like to meet her in that particular day, maybe it was impolite by going directly to her school, but after all I only want to see her before I left, she should forgive me for this reason. the journey there was something like a pilgrimage , it was one of unforgettable experiences and my cherished memories. I enjoyed the whole processes except the sad end. it was in the twilight when she finally showed herself. you know what, as soon as she saw me , she told me immediately "let me show you the way home", did you know, you cruel creature, I came to your place far away from the hotel ,only wish I could stay with you for a little while, but you told me this,you were so cold and cruel! I sat in the seat of the bus home like a dad man with his last breathe , I were totally submerged in melancholy , I didn't want to accept the truth, but it seemed to me that I had no other choice.
she was the only girl (besides my family )who I truly loved until now. she could turn me on, she was the magic and miracle for me. Although time can change anything. she got married in this September , thousands of good wishes to you , my true love. I must forget you , I must thank you for you having influenced me so deeply. I also hate you due to the hurt you had done to me. you are my elf ， life with you and without you will be completely different. I wrote these words to forget you.

national day ,2007

I feel time passing by so fast.It seems last national day just past yesterday.
I relieved by receiving telephone call from home. I know there are someones remember me in other corner of this planet.
I felt loneliness this morning, I didn't recover until the call from home.
I believe my relation with Liu shuang has ended .
Tomorrow I will go to MinSheng bank to give a formal report of lost of card. I hope I will reclaim that 20K CNY ASAP.

terrible scene I see today

today is 9/11, in the near history today of 2001 was a terrible day for NewYorkers and for American people. but today was a very good day for me . (sorry, Americans , I don't mean to hurt you ) Because I felt calm, relaxed and had a clear mind. my efficiency was high today, I have figured out many issues, I discussed issues with Chad and Bob in english,I downloaded and listened to really fantastic music, I enjoyed mp3 audio book, named AI, in a word,I felt really good today.
but I also see some terrible thing happened this evening. I saw a couple quarreled in the street , ;the wife was crying , actually she was howling , it was really a very sad and pathetic screaming! the husband clutched one of her arms and drew her when her body was lying and sliding on the ground! and the woman was weaker than the man ,but tried to fight with the man, the man struck her wife on the head heavily, the woman became more hysteric and fought back ......, I can bear watching any longer this terrible scene.

love is ... ...

Love is loving other people or things without wishing get any rewards.
Love is willing to offer and offering your most precious possession .
Wish we can enjoy the feeling of love and being loved .
Almost every beautiful and wonderful thing is accomplished with love.
Think of it !
So, without love , what is the meaning of life!
without love, we lose our basis of existence .

a few thoughts

realistic life is much different from life in movies.
silent man is not always bad, sometimes it make him seems like deeper.
we should find our true love, as for love , we shall not be compromised. it will influence the feeling of our parents, but I believe finding true love is the only way responsible for ourselves.
try to understand the physics and other truths around us, it is very important to me .
Revolutionary ideas are always wonderful, they can not be achieved by conformism .

湖北师范学院化学系9501班军训

old pictures

what the basketball give me

playing basketball is really fun, it is a teamwork, when I play the game, my teammates' styles will be clearly shown, in most occasions, I enjoy seeing this or that style, it should not always be excellent , but surely they will be special and interesting . :-)
when playing this game, I release my anxieties, lots of worries, I feel relaxed, the feeling is fabulous, I really enjoy it ! after I did this or that, I am pleased because I realize that I are able to do them, I have powers , of course , just the physical power of mankind , not so super ,but it is good when a man finds and know he own it !
Mr. Kong also was there, playing this game on the playground, he is about 20 years older than us, he seems old when he controls or passes ball, but he is OK . time is relentless to us , as age grows older and older, the game leaves us further and further !

really enjoy staying at hometown these 3 days

    I went back to hometown during the last 4 days to apply for the the
certification of my household register from Shi Yan Dong Yue road police
station, together with me , many of my colleagues also went back to
get it . we met this Monday in the station, the feeling of assembling at
another place was great. and the certifications were  released to us
very quickly.
   during these days I stayed at home, the atmosphere was not bad
although papa was a little unpleasant as before,  I bought 4 batteries and
fixed them in the battery case of the blood pressure scale , it continued
to work, mom , I , and my brother were all very happy to see that the
scale was able to work again!
   before I returned to my hometown, Papa suspected that maybe  I will
not able to withdraw money form my lost debit card , but after my
explanation about the issue, he realize that I have much hope to do that, I
think he fell much  better now.
   I went to internet cafe trice, and YanHu lake once, the weather
during my staying  was perfect, I enjoyed it .
   my brother and I discussed something on love ,relationship, and
marriage, maybe we should more practical ,more reasonable , perfect love and
marriage is something rarely happened!
   there are so many pretty girls around us, but destination doesn't
fulfill our wills. each one has his (her) individual path of marriage and
life. 

Lei Bao's wedding

I felt good during the wedding, the atmosphere was very good, people acted quietly and without too many people , I felt the quietness and the harmony, people needed not pretend to be happy,because we were really happy and we were familiar to one another.
I wish when I get married, I will not invite too many people, I will invite the people who I really know , I will not care the artificial things, but the wedding should be full of laughters, I will prefer to play classical music to achieve the happy and tranquil effect.
I am happy that I attended Leibao and Longjie's wedding.

what is love

sometimes I wonder what love is . I was introduced to a girl , who I don't know before, we met just because I and she both haven't gotten married respectively. I don't care who she is, I care much to what personality she owns, if she is generous, honest, lovely, I wish she could love me ,and we can get married, if she don't like me or she care little of me, then we should not be together.
in my case, I am not sure whether she likes me, but I know we are indifferent to each other, at least now. I am not young , I wish I could form a family soon, but if she is not the person who I love or I don't match her requirement, the possibility of getting married is slim.
I encounter several girls, I don't like most of them instinctively, I think this instinct comes from chemical reaction between man and woman, the smell, the way of speaking ,the feeling to her or his voice ,etc, they can be perceived immediately . I know I have some defects, I am not perfect, I am even odd, but I am I , I can't be someone else, my spirit can't escape from my body, I can't change my appearance drastically , my voice comes from my throat, my teeth look not perfect.
may god bless me . may my parents and brother understand my situation. may one day I are able to marry with a girl who loves me and are loved by me!

Sunday with Liu Shuang

today I went to Liu shuang's place, I met her sisters ,her mother and her grandfather, as well as her colleagues. first we went to shopping mall and bought some fish , fruits, vegetable, then we went to her place, she lived in dormitory of her company, it is simple and her 2 sisters all have baby, Liu Shang kept in taking care of their babies, it seemed she enjoyed it very much.
later, the lunch time came, we went to to dining room of her company and because today is Sunday,most of the employees had gone home , we can sit around a table and drink beer or wine.the hosts were very hospitable , they persuaded me drinking a lot, they were all good people, although the foods were not fit my taste very much.
after luncheon , they returned to the booth near the front gate , they played MaJiang , four of them will participate the game and rest of them sat around them and watched the progress of the game, including her mother , her sisters , her grandfather, her colleagues. Liu Shuang didn't look at me directly, maybe she paid much attention to me without making me aware of it .
at last , I told her that I want to leave, she accompanied me to a broad way where I can order a taxi, we said good bye each other.
I don't know whether we can continue to see each other, or whether our relation could improve in the future.

excert from perfSpot blog 2007.8.17

How can one person invade your thoughts and enable you from thinking or doing something.
Stopping you dead in your tracks; you close the book your reading because you've read the same sentence six times.
That single slip of thought that runs into a memory and your lost in the glitter of the moment.

Or how one look can overwhelm the senses and the mind.
That one movement, the flicker of the eyes imprinting themselves into another, for an everlasting moment of unreal fantasy.

Im afraid to fall asleep, where i have no control over my thoughts about you,
while im wide awake i can dream my own dreams; you make sleep impossible.
But everytime i close my eyes my mind flutters across snapshots taken by my eyes, of your smile, your eyes, your unforgettable moments.

hang-up inverse

below paragraphs are from steve's blog

Hangin out

Here's a shot of me trying out this awesome new upside-down back-stretcher thing that I just bought and man it is soooo sparking my creativity. I'm in it for eight to ten hours a day, and go home feeling completely refreshed. Jonathan Ive has been doing all his work in one of these for years -- maybe that's why he can "think different," eh? -- and he has been bugging me for like forever to try one. I'll admit I was pretty skeptical plus I didn't want the hassle of having to rearrange my office and put all the iMacs and desks and phones upside down. But now that I've switched there's no going back. Seriously. I can't recommend it enough. I really think this is going to be huge, like people are going to redesign entire office parks around this. It's that much better in terms of productivity.

INVERSION THERAPY: A NATURAL APPROACH TO CORRECTING BACK PROBLEMS

So you think hanging upside down to relieve back pain is some wacky, new-age idea? Think again. Itís believed that inversion was used as early as 400 B.C., when Hippocrates, the father of medicine, first watched a patient have his knees and ankles tied to a ladder to be hoisted upside down for a dose of whatís come to be known as spinal traction.

The Greek theories on inversion are still valid, but today there is a much easier way to relieve the back pains most people experience from time to time. The process is called inversion therapy, and it can be the natural way to a better back and a better body.

Back pain is one of the most common physical complaints in the world. Every day, itís estimated that some eleven million Americans struggle to get through a day complicated by an aching back. In the United States alone, some 93 million workdays are lost each year due to back problems. There is overwhelming evidence that spending a few minutes each day hanging upside down can be beneficial to your back, and to your general health, by simply counteracting the continuous downward pull of gravity. Hang Ups inversion equipment offers a safe and comfortable way for anyone to benefit from the soothing sensation of inversion.

The concept of turning the body upside down for better health has been around for centuries. In yoga, the ìShirsonanaî headstand position has been used by yoga practitioners as a rather painful form of ìpostural exchangeî (reversing the direction of gravity). However, not everyone wants to do headstands, and that created the market for Hang Ups inversion tables, gravity boots, and racks.

Over time, the compressive force of gravity is particularly harsh on the spine because of the flattening effect on the spinal discs. The intervertebral discs act as shock absorbers between the vertebra, and consist of a cartilage covering which surrounds a gelatin-like center. Combine the compressive effect of gravity with stress, weak back and stomach muscles, or an exercise program, and you have all of the ingredients for back pain.

There are a minimum of 32 pounds per square inch (psi) of pressure on each spinal disc, even when a person is lying down. When we stand up, the pressure triples to about 100 psi. And when you sit down, spinal disc pressure rises to a whopping 225 pounds per square inch! Inverting the body is the only way to completely reverse the negative effects of gravity.

Of course, itís impossible to offset the ìpostural debtî of a lifetime just by jumping on an inversion table. But by spending a few minutes inverted each day, two or three times a day, people begin to feel results by the end of the first week. After a month of inversion, most people donít know how they ever got along without it.

Both physicians and chiropractors report positive results from using natural gravity-inversion traction with patients. A neurosurgeon in San Francisco says, ìIt [inversion] seems to get people over the acute phase quicker than other forms of therapy. We believe that inversion can benefit the discs, strengthen ligaments and soft tissues, and relieve muscle spasms. Weíve also had success with patients suffering from herniated discs.

Besides providing relief from back pain, a daily dose of inversion can help to promote good health by correcting common spinal alignment problems, eliminating tension headaches, reducing hemorrhoids, alleviating the discomfort of varicose veins, and stimulating mental alertness.

Inversion was popularized by Dr. Robert Martin, a Pasadena orthopedic specialist. Dr. Martin encouraged his patients to pursue an inversion-therapy program as a first-round alternative to back surgery. He provided relief to hundreds of patients through inversion, and patented his own brand of inversion equipment in 1963.

In 1982, Dr. Martin told The Wall Street Journal, ìItís very simple why inversion works. All day long weíre either standing or sitting, with gravity pressing down on us. Hanging by the feet allows our bodies to decompress, our spines to be realigned, and our joints to separate. A little inversion goes a long way, and the relief it brings is often almost instantaneous.

Quite simply, inversion allows gravity to help the body to naturally correct and align itself. You stretch out and elongate your spine, get blood to the brain, invert and reposition internal organs, and take stress off of the heart, which usually has to pump blood ìuphillî to the brain.

As with any new exercise program, if someone is in doubt about their level of fitness, or if they are over the age of 40, consult a physician before starting an inversion program. Inversion is not recommended for people with extreme weight problems, those with a history of stroke, acute back injuries, or high blood pressure, and it is very important that people with these conditions consult with their doctor before trying inversion. Also, individuals who have bone disease, retinal detachment, or any other serious eye disorders would be advised to avoid inversion without their doctors permission.

For someone with a back problem about to begin a program of inversion therapy, Hang Ups has a few helpful suggestions.

Begin slowly: Invert only 15 to 20 degrees at first, and stay inverted only as long as it feels comfortable, which may only be a few seconds at first. Remarkably, you can gain all of the benefits of inversion without ever fully inverting yourself. Most people find 20 to 60 degrees of decline adequate and very comfortable.

Make changes gradually: Increase the angle of decline only if it is comfortable, and only increase the angle a few degrees at a time. The Hang Ups F5000III inversion table has a tether strap to help people stay within their inversion range. People can add rocking back and forth (rhythmic traction) to their inversion program once they feel comfortable.

Pay attention to your body: Youíre unique, and your body will tell you whatís good for it. You determine the pace when adapting to the inverted world.

Keep moving while inverted: Use intermittent traction (pull and release) or rhythmic traction to encourage blood, lymph, and spinal fluid circulation. Moving, twisting, stretching, and light exercise while inverted aids in the alignment of bones and organs while minimizing any increase in blood pressure, but strenuous exercise is not recommended while inverted. Just relax and enjoy!

Do it regularly: There are a variety of inversion programs and exercises. Trust yourself to find the approach thatís best for you, and then do it every day. Two or three short sessions a day seem to work best for most people.

Based on years of research and the testimonials of hundreds of people who have found relief from back pain, inversion is a powerful, natural option for people who want to relieve lower back pain. Sometimes thereís an explanation for why inversion works, and sometimes there isnít - it works for some and not for others. We only know that, for many people, literally ìturning their world upside downî through inversion therapy can provide an alternative to drugs and surgery in a life filled with daily pain.

image of a cute little girl

this evening when I reviewed the photos I took a couple of days ago, to my surprise I saw this picture, it is the photo of a little girl , I wondered who she is , was this photo taken by me? no, I can't remember , I didn't took this . later I realize that maybe this image was taken by one of my colleagues, because she had borrowed my camera about half a month ago. maybe the girl in the photo is her daughter. the girl is a very lovely girl . I have no girl friend now, when will I can get married and what will my daughter look like?

my summer vacation was a total disarster

I had a very bad vacation this summer, I lost my wallet , in it there were my ID ,debit card ,card for recording my entry time and leaving time in workdays and cash. In china , we have a relatively strict household register administration, so it took me time and energy to reclaim another one . until now my debit card in a commercial bank has not accepted my formal loss report due to I have two different ID NO. what I can do is to wait to the day after tomorrow, when the holiday is over and our accountant go to work , I are able to ask for his help .
another reason why I was depressed is that I can not find any conform when I stayed with my papa, he was a silent old man , and I don't like him at all. I don't like him because of his gloomy temper ,his overacting when he encounter any problem.he always tends to think too much on a meaningless nothing.I don't know how to live together with him in the future.
on the other hand , mom and brother are good to me. I can barely stay there at home,it was hot ,there are no computer or DVD player or something like that, the only thing I could do were reading or listening to the music which were displayed by my cellphone , or watching TV which I was not very fond of . my papa almost never leave his house, he was absolutely solitary , he must suffer much bitterness by doing this, I am worried of him indeed, but I was weak to save him from this tragic condition.he was absolutely stubborn and he is 64 years old , I am sad whenever I think of my papa.he is a dark shadow in my and my brother's mind. after I leaving papa ,mom and brother yesterday, I am free now in another city far away from hometown, but I really worry about my brother's life covered by this gloomy shadow .
due to boringness , I took some photos, the daffodil is beautiful , the man in the other picture is me .

other bloggers show me amazing lives in other areas of the globe

thanks to the guys who are working in google blogger,tonight I have the opportunity of go to other bloggers' spaces and know part of their lives, their precious part of life! one women with her name Heidi showing me her realistic life in New Mexico , and I enjoy it solely because of her straight recording of her feeling , thank you so much. maybe we are not clever enough, but we are unique ,maybe we are not beautiful , but in somebody's eyes ,our ugliness turns to beauty.
I don't like there are too many philosophic discussion or deep meditation in any blog.

YOU are the LOVERS

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

Martha BeallMitchell - a sad story , tragedy in the family

Martha Beall Mitchell was born on September 2, 1918, in Pine Bluff, Arkansas. She lived in a large, Victorian house and was spoiled by her wealthy parents. Outgoing and vivacious from the start, she was a popular girl with many friends. She was well known for her “gift of gab.” When she graduated from Pine Bluff High school in 1936, she wrote in her yearbook, next to her picture, “I love its gentle warble/ I love its gentle flow/ I love to wind my tongue up/ And I love to let it go.” She attended Stephens College in Columbia, Missouri. Like many women during World War II, she went to work, toiling at the Pine Bluff Arsenal, but Martha was an old-fashioned Southern belle who believed that women should work only in times of dire need.

A brief first marriage produced a son, Jay. After divorcing, Martha moved to Washington and met attorney John Mitchell. They married on December 30, 1957, and Martha was surprised when she became pregnant at the age of 42. In 1961, she gave birth to a daughter, Marty.

The Mitchells were a popular Washington couple who were always entertaining or being entertained. Martha was the picture of Southern femininity in ruffled dresses, bows, big hair, and hats. John Mitchell seemed to adore his wife and was amused by her big mouth and love of gossip. When he was chosen by Richard Nixon to run his 1968 presidential campaign, Mitchell warned Nixon that Martha was vociferous and had a tendency to over-dramatize, but Nixon told him not to worry about it. After the election, John Mitchell became Nixon’s attorney general, and Martha became a national figure, entertaining the public with her quick wit and flamboyant sense of style.

Things began to fall apart for Martha when the Watergate scandal exploded in October, 1972. The Washington Post reported that her husband, John, had authorized $250,000 to pay for bail and to hush up the Watergate burglars. Martha was apoplectic, believing the White house was using her husband as a scapegoat to protect Richard Nixon. Martha called Bob Woodward and Carl Bernstein, the two young reporters at the Post, to make her case that John was nothing but a puppet being manipulated by Nixon. Then she began to call other reporters, sometimes in the middle of the night. John Mitchell knew of his wife’s shenanigans, and at first defended her, accusing the press of exploiting a naïve Southern girl. Soon Nixon was on his case, however, and John reportedly went so far as to lock Martha in a closet to keep her from phoning the press.

White House tapes reveal that Nixon, while angry at Martha, didn’t feel there was much he could do to control her. The White House did, however, leak information on Martha’s alleged drinking problem. A great strain had been put on the Mitchell marriage, and by 1973, John Mitchell had had it with his unstable wife. He walked out of their Washington apartment, refusing to speak to Martha except through his lawyer. The breakup was exceedingly bitter; when Mitchell was sentenced for his Watergate crimes in February 1975, he said, “It could have been worse. They could have sentenced me to spend the rest of my life with Martha Mitchell.”

By that time, Martha was suffering from myeloma, a virulent bone marrow cancer with a very low cure rate. John Mitchell knew of his wife’s condition, and called her doctors several times, but refused to speak to Martha or visit her. Most heartbreaking of all, Marty, Martha and John's daughter, sided with her father, and never again saw her mother. On May 30, 1976, Martha Mitchell was rushed to a hospital in Washington, where she fell into a coma from which she never regained consciousness. She died nineteen days later, at the age of 57. At the end, only her son Jay and a few friends were with her.

a terrible day - maybe this is the way through which I can grow

the weather was really hot today, I could barely stand it . around 10 o'clock , to follow what I had promised to Ms Chen yesterday, I went to industrial & commercial bank of china to transfer the freight to Expeditors Shanghai , it may sounds very easy , but for my mistakes, it took me lots of time in the bank, it was about 11 a.m. when I was out of the bank, then I went to my office to fetch another important document , because the power was off in my company today, I had to find help at another place and pay it in Shenlong street , after that I went to the nearest bus stop , because I wanted to go to Wuhan Xiehe hospital . I waited and waited, no bus came , later I found out that the route of the bus was changed due to the road was under construction ,so I had to went to another bus station to take the bus, after I arrived at Hankou , I tried to find where was the hospital , but no sooner had I figured out the right direction, than I made a terrible mistake , I lost my wallet, after I realized what had happened, I said to myself that I had no a fen ,how could I go back to my place! terrible ! just like a nightmare! then I got into a yellow taxi and desperately went to the bank where the lost debit card was issued , but because my ID was also in my lost wallet,they could not help me to report the loss formally, as an alternative, they told me I can report the loss of my debit card informally by calling and notifying the bank if I remembered the code , unfortunately I forgot it . I was so worried about my lost debit card, maybe the money deposited in the card had already been drawn out by that damn asshole , then it will be really terrible for me !
I tried to find a way to persuade the clerk of the bank to help me , after lots of calls and long period of time ,it was done, but I must go to the bank and give a much formal report of loss.
today it totally was a nightmare for me. I was so unlucky!

music is a train of magical vibration

different types of music can give me different feelings, today I listen to peaceful moon which album was downloaded from verycd.com this afternoon, it wiped out all my desires, all my loneliness, all my worries ,at least temporarily . without listening to this album, I will surely end up with anxiety , chaotic emotions . thanks to the composer ,the performers , you give me peace . I will continue to listen this album in the future. thanks.

a call waked me up

I don't know why, but I really want to cry when I picked up the phone from her,and hearing her voice pass through the line from the other end , her voice hasn't changed its characteristics.she is polite and a little naive . when she called me ,I am sleeping on the floor with a mattress and a bamboo mat under my back. the phone ring waked me up. I ask her where she was at that time, she told me she was still in company , I realize it was about 9 p.m. they must stayed there preparing for the audit which is going to be made by Valeo tomorrow. she needed my help for the audit of tomorrow,some files were not prepared and some jigs are not prepared yet. I asked her why she need go back to her school ,my first feeling when I was told that she will leave the company is regretful then happy if this can make her life better .
last time I wanted to cry is after I saw a documentary which records the ZhiQing's unforgettable period of their life when they were young and sent to northeastern china during political movement. I wanted to cry because I realize how fast a person's life can elapse , how quickly a young man will get old.

I can open my space in blogger now!

thanks to my friend's help, I can open my blog now, he told me to use a server to realize it ,because China hasn't unblocked the blogspot. good, very good. now I are able to communicate with more people!

to you, my friends

There are moments in life when you love & miss someone so much

that you just want to pick them from your dreams

and hug them for real! And to know that depth of love
is truly as wonderful as life itself.

When one door closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

Don't love for looks; they can deceive.
Don't love for wealth; even that fades away.
Love someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
But remember to always have a smile within your own heart first.

Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that they have.

The brightest future will always be based on a darker past;
you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

Please send this message to those people who mean something to you ;

to those who have touched your life in one way or another;
to those who make you smile when you really need it;
to those who make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down;
to those whose friendship you appreciate;
to those who are so meaningful in your life.

亲爱的悟空，亲爱的师傅

亲爱的悟空：
　　在天庭住好一阵子了，不知你在花果山过得可好？我这封信写得很慢，因为知道
你看字不快。我们已经搬家了，不过地址没改，因为搬家时顺便把门牌带来了。这礼
拜下了两次雨，第一次下了3天，第二次下了4天。
　　昨天我们去买比萨，店员问道："请问要切成8片还是12片？"你勤俭的师母说："
切8片好了，切12片恐怕吃不完。"那间店比萨还不错，改天我们全家再一起去街口的
餐馆吃牛排。
　　还有你观音阿姨说你要我寄去的那件外套，因为邮寄时会超重，所以我们把扣子
剪下来放在那件外套的口袋里了。
　　你嫦娥姐姐早上生了。因为我还不知道到底是男的还是女的，所以我不知道你要
当阿姨还是舅舅。最近没什么事，我会再写信给你。

师傅
又及：我们本来要寄钱给你，但是信封已经粘好了

悟空回复：
亲爱的师父:
因为我们那里在搞拆迁，所以我现在不住花果山了。但是，因为没有门牌号，我
也不知道我住在哪里。感谢中国邮政，我收到了你的邮件。还有那件外套，因为我不
会缝扣子，所以我把他改成背心了，好暖和。
师傅，我现在过得很好，周末经常去肯德基里吃麦当劳。
师傅，我很想你，等中国移动降了漫游费，我会给你打电话。还有，嫦娥姐生小
孩的事情先不要跟八戒说，他感情比较脆弱。

life is the thing which you should taste feel & enjoy

Life is a wonder , from human being's point of view. as a member of it , I will feel it with all my heart, the journey of life can be amazing. open my mind , listen carefully .keep health and plunge into the lake of life .

magnificent meaning under physics

it is fabulous to partly understand modern physics, you must experience the awful feeling even when you try to understand part of it . Astonishing truths always appear ,and it is hard to accept it when the scientific result is presented to you . It surely will be a fabulous adventure, thanks so many physicists and respectable gentlemen and ladies who dedicate in education, thanks to the people who make relevant books published!

a business trip to Shashi Valeo

today we went to Shashi to collect the relevant information about the incident , Zhao hailing came with us .we met Mr. She there and obtained enough information , he request our immediate response to the incident and try to prevent it from happening again. Mr. Wang , the driver ,and other 3 staff from Jieju were our companions ,Mrs Zhao has a very young heart although she is in her 50's. there were rainstorms during our journey. I also met Chenbo who worked in Valeo as the purchasing manager ,he helped me to settle down the prices adjustment for 2 coated parts. while I was on this business trip , Mrs Yang has helped me do many works in my company. Yeqing should learn lots of thing today .

stranger than fiction

yesterday I had contacted with her , I invited her to go out with me in this Sunday , it is tomorrow, I hope she will have a great time with me , we all have a great time. perhaps when you stay with the person whom you like or love , there will be no barrier or obstacles between them . who knows?
these days our company is merging with another two company, the state is a little bit chaos, I don't know my future, although I believe I will stay in this combined company after the merging completed.
sometimes I wonder why we always can not be satisfied , we always believe and convince that we deserve a better life. we always feel a little or deep regret on the reality of our life, It is amazing , perhaps it derives from our nature, human being eager more than they could obtain.
I have seen a film named "stranger than fiction" twice within the last two days,the scenario is perfectly composed, I like it , I were delighted by the meaning of it . there are philosophical meanings in it , I appreciated the effort made by the director and the story composer, it is wonderful indeed.

I need privacy , I believe each people need it.

我们不必为了显示“光明磊落”而把自己生活的方方面面亮给别人看，像是愿意接受检阅视察状，这是幼稚的想法，如果去实施，一定很痛苦的。
每个人需要有不亮给别人的隐私时间和场所。这也是人类进步的一个证明。这么简单的道理如此明显，只要稍微想象和推理就能明白的。但我承认我的脑子里仍有这种封建糟粕。容易把自己想象成多么磊落，多么英雄，非也。

met another girl

she is not very beautiful and she is thin, with black hair like a black waterfall , she impressed me by telling what she was thinking directly, and for this reason I think she is reliable.
I invited her to my house since it is weekend today and tomorrow she will be free, but she insisted that she must go home to prevent her parents' worry. she is living in the dormitory of the company where she is working for, and her uncle is the boss of that company.
I should thank Mrs. Yuan and Chen lingli for their introduction.

I need more chance to find my gf

I think it is important to get more opportunities to meet more girls , so as to get more possibility of finding my future girlfriend and wife.
I should not spend all my time at home alone when I am free, is it called self-closing? I confirmed that I fit this category after one of my colleagues spoke it out , before then I only guess so sometimes.
Be brave to meet the girl tomorrow , everything will be ok .
Be my girlfriend or have no further contact , I can accept all results, just try it and do an effort on it .

why can't I always concentrate my mind , curiosity lost?

I can't figure out why I can not focus my mind on a particular thing and keep it for a fairly long time . always feel tired.
what is the destination and ultimate purpose ? ha, too much consideration about the meaning of life, not a good symbol for a youth, am I youth ? surely I am . ^_^
today is father's day , is my father happy today? I have no courage to tell him that I love him from the very bottom of my heart. I don't want to say too much thing about my father here, every time I think of him , my eyes tend to be wet .
last week an indian called me ,I picked up the phone to answer him, but the quality of the voice was bad, I can not hear him clearly, I wonder what I should do when he call me next time.
Liang li is good girl, really good. she deserve my attention. at least she is better than lots of girls and women around me.

I should be honest

Why I can not let her know what I am thinking of
Have I let her know what is my true meaning
Can I hurt another girl's self-esteem in the end by sending a misleading signal to her causally

call from mum

妈今天打来电话，开门见山问我对象谈得怎么样了，我好像要有意气她，说我没说过我要谈啊，刚说完就觉得不该说这句话的，然后她说她给我联系了一个，对方姑娘现在和我一个厂的，然后问我觉得怎么样，我本来就不喜欢这个女的，倒不是她怎么不好，只是觉得我不会跟她结婚生活的。我也不知道对方到底怎么样，没有接触太多，只是在冲压车间干久了的，我都不大敢谈，想想那种环境，那种噪音。我跟妈解释原因，她应该很失望，但语气不是烦躁，也不是失望，而是一种淡淡的无奈，无力多言的感觉。她说哥也不结婚，哥还对她发火，我也不结婚，他们都这么老了，以后会怎么样？我觉得应该承担起责任了，不能总是这样过单身生活，父母还盼着报孙子呢。I always leave my hope to tomorrow, but what time can it be realized ? I should take action ,otherwise my life will be filled with terror and unhappiness. it is time to made up my mind and find a girl ,an ordinary girl to get married. it is time .

fedora 7 , an amazing platform, deserves your try

yesterday night I kept my emule working in order to complete downloading iso image file of Fedora 7 , this unix operating system is just tested and released by red hat , because I am using Fedora 6 , I care for the updated version keenly, wish there will be something to surprise me, this morning the iso image has been downloaded via emule , then I burned it to a DVD disk, after about half an hour ,the installation was finished, the style of interface of logging on follows that of Fedora 6, the main color is blue , there are balloons floating among the white clouds , which represents freedom and infinity , after logging on , I found most of the icons have been updated , and system notified me to update lots of programs , everything is fine. I don't know whether it is a disillusion , I really enjoy the videos and music played under Fedora system , I prefer them to that under Windows system , for instance , when I see a movie with xine which is a non-free software under Fedora system ,the landscape seems more spectacular than the images after the file is decoded and presented by storm player or windows media player, maybe the crew of Fedora have their secret weapons . really great!

who are you, where are you from

I don't know whether I have met you before?
I wonder if you are the one who I have lost 8 years ago
I want to tell you : you are beautiful just like you have never left and your age was frozen from the moment I lost you
don't want to lose you again although this time you are embodied
shall I be loyal to the first virgin or rediscover you by turning my attention to the others who are alike you?
maybe it is the spirit ,the same spirit that I shall catch up with
you still live in my life even you are far from me
even you disappear forever
may god forgive me
hope my opinion sacred
good bye forever
embrace you tightly

我们都是人啊！

为什么中国有人富得流油仍然膨胀着个人欲望，整几亿人民币一定很有成就感。
为什么你们这些穷苦的农民工，为了家里某个孩子能够上大学或为了给伤残的正在读寄宿小学的儿子治病，而一个又一个地离开家里，到城里打工，干着枯燥、危险、低工资的活。春节短暂的团聚后是多么令人心碎的分别，相信这是许多穷苦中国人的共同体会。
我们都是人，出来打工的嫂子不比那个富豪缺乏人之为人的良好秉性，也许就是老实了些吧，发财的点子少了些，在城市森林中，真正的弱肉强食，be lion or be sheep . but 我们不都是人么？构建立和谐社会！和谐在哪里啊！我们应该没有那么贫富差距的呀。
想想，现今有国力的国家为了争夺对资源的控制而频挑战争。什么生命不生命，什么平民受战争创伤，我们国家需要机器运转的汽油就足够做为下一轮战争的理由。想想这些，真的对人性本善越来越怀疑了。对了，今天听我们单位的同事说，最近有新房子出售，因为排队抢购的人太多，最后大家竟然打起来了，看来个人就是国家的缩影。 无语。

internet is much better than TV

why I say this? first and foremost, I are the master when I use computer . I tap the keys, I click the link with mouse, even when I am watching a movie, I can roll back or skip to a new section which I may be more interested in . on the contrary , I am a slave when I am watching TV if I stop selecting channels by using remote control , when I watching TV, everything is settled down by the the television station, what I can do is just to watch , I have no initiative to change anything except push the keys on the remote control . you want to see a section of the story which you have not understood just now, or want to make a copy after you encountering a wonderful movie? sorry , it is always too late, you'd better forget it ,just have a good dream.
second, TV programs are propaganda released by government , we should thank our government for providing us many wonderful entertainment with TV programs, but on the other hand , the information may be partial ,often try to cover some inconvenient truth . remember , a righteous mind need the cultivation of an open atmosphere , so don't be blind by prejudice , come to internet , to hear what other people who live on the opposite side of the planet say,it will give you a better and just views.

maybe nowadays' humanity is the victim of machines

we rely more and more on machines, more and more on electricity ,crude oil, petroleum ,gasoline . once we were able to live without so much energy consumption ,now we are almost utterly rely on them. with the exponential increase of population , our society is burdened by this upcoming energy crisis . we were able to travel and transport goods by carriage pulled by horses , oxen or donkeys centuries ago, now we are not willing to do these things without trucks , ships or aeroplanes, because with the lifestyle modification, our concepts for life had totally changed ,we need efficiency ,we can not tolerant delay , we plan this and plan that, everything is settled in the schedules or schemes , there are lots of thing waiting for us to do in line. with the crazy hasty and the always thirsty for more products to be manufactured , we are keeping on consuming more and more resources, some of which are almost empty now, such as crude oil, we are also keeping on consuming faster and faster , unless we find some ways to obtain new types of energy conveniently ,our destiny is doomed. so the ingenuity and creativity are the most important properties that we need to face and overcome this great challenge .
maybe we human being can get more peace of mind and happiness by being a little lazy , less competitive.
think of it !

get well along with people whom I will meet in the playground , I want to be your friend.

remember I was always energetic when I play basketball with others , maybe I care too much of lose or win , now I feel that I am not so young that I should still be too aggressive , I should pay more attention to enjoying the game , just like Jordan said in his thirties, :-) , of course I can never be so great like him in this field, he is the absolute hero and model for followers to admire and get courage .
let us enjoy the game, I want to be your friend after close match , I also can understand why some of them so aggressive , I will tell myself I used to be this kind of player, maybe they eager to demonstrate their youth and their vigor energy , this should be especially important to attract more young girls' eyeballs .
today I met two youths who live far away from the basket ball playground of New Jiang university , this place is the nearest playground they can reach , compare to them I am more lucky , it only takes me 10 minutes to arriving at this place from my house. I also noticed that a middle-age man drove a sedan here to play ball game , he looks healthy , good shape to him , obviously he doesn't need wealth any more :-)

I need change the layout of my entertainment room frequently to obtain a fresh feeling

it was around fall of 2003 , I lived with 8 colleagues in a rented apartment , I and Liu jianhu happened to share a bedroom in it , he is 3 years older than me , and he is friendly ,I think I was also very friendly at that time , he likes playing chinese chess, I was very poor at this game , he also enjoyed repairing all kind of devices and appliances , once he helped me to repair my electrical shaver which was almost deserted and I had already lost all my confidence to repair it, but he fixed it after a simple check , he is always good at it , and he is working in a maintenance department in our company. he liked to go out and have a look here and there when he was free then, he always invited me to go with him ,and he led me to all kinds of grocery stores, markets ,second-handed goods market, once we went into a second handed computer market, there were all kinds of machines and lots of people , I always dreamed of owning my own computer ,I bet he also was dying for it , so finally we discussed and made our mind to buy one together , I and Liu jianhu invested 400 RMB respectively and bought a low end computer , the vendor also agreed to offer us a desk to set up the computer which was free of charge, we took a texi and carried that precious machine back, after then we would always be very exciting every time we open it and made this or that programs run , later we make the computer on line , so we can surf internet and chat or play games online . later the period limit for renting the apartment was expired , and some of our roommates bought their own house, so we left that apartment to move in their own house or try to find the next renting apartment . as to how to deal with the computer which we bought together about half a year ago, I gave 400 RMB to Liu jianhu and obtain the ownership ,later ,after I accumulating enough money ,I change lots of the components of this old machine , and bought 2 better desks to place the machine, the machine tends to absorb dust , so about every 2 weeks the computer and desks need to be cleaned, I am a little lazy , sometimes I will neglect them .
today my mood is not perfect , I stare at them ,I told myself I need change it somehow, otherwise I can not even breath, so after about an hour , the new layout appeared, my heart gets a little light , it is ok. :-)

回到武汉

在家呆了5天,今天我又回到了武汉,25号在售票窗口下定回家决心的原因是想和父母哥哥团聚一下而已,内心有点不希望回去,但这几天在家还是感受到父母兄长的关心,虽有不如意的地方,总的来说还是很有价值的.我和爸说话不多,但关系很融洽,他让我给他剃头,还是全部剃光的那种,在我一个手扶着爸的头,一手推剃刀去他那白发夹杂的头发时,我感觉到父子亲情,父亲让我给他办了龙卡,说是夏天要带积攒的两万块钱和妈一块过来装修铺底板.妈还是往常一样,希望我在家能吃好,还非常希望我能找到女朋友,早点结婚.哥还是喜欢打麻将,我接到很多找他的电话,都是麻将方面的事,今天本来说送我上车的,结果一个电话过来,他还是去打麻将了,这似乎是哥的唯一爱好,家人都拿他没法,希望哥能早日觉悟,为未来做打算才是.到网吧查了两次邮箱,知道武汉这边有工作方面的事情进展的不顺利,我今天已经到了武汉,需要赶快解决.
前天在家看电视剧频道的一个爱情题材的电视剧<<为爱结婚>>,片中扮演陆弥的那个演员不知道叫什么,当时我看的是李亚鹏扮演的子冲为了帮助他深爱的陆弥恢复记忆,放弃工作,放弃出国的机遇,顶着自己家里的反对和陆弥家人的不理解,为了爱,到深山老林抓萤火虫那集,当他们坐在屋梁上放萤火虫的时候,感觉真是太浪漫了,这才是真爱吧,也许真爱确实存在,爱就是愿意为对方付出,付出时间,精力,付出爱.结果今天我在火车上,对面做的一个女孩,就特别想陆弥,也许女孩的相貌分几个类型,她们正好属同一个类型,很幸运,但是还是不是太象,否则她会考电影学院的.

return to my hometown & stay at home

It is not a very suitable place for me to stay , although I keep on coming back once or twice a year, this home gave me many memories in which melancholy occured more frequntly than happiness. our family mumbers are not good at communication , most time we prefer to be silent , yelling and curse always broke out , if not ,it will be a deep silence for a long time.
I come back for realize the reunion of this family ,at least superficially. I also hope it is the time for our 4 hearts to reunite and find peace and harmony between them . I think the barriers between us lie in intolerance , we never look thing just from others'positions. we have no the shared emotional fundation. we don't know the skill of how to communicate efficiently.
in the first 2 days ,I kept myself in room ,read the book I brought from Wuhan, today I went out to check mailbox in a cybercafe,most of the people around me here are students ,they are in vacation and enjoying free time , it should be exciting when playing games or chatting with friends and strangers.

Friends from America and Shanghai

they belongs to one of our main customers, they came to our company in order to cooperate with us to make sure that the new project can develop well . their team included lots of people, I met our chinese partners , I haven't met the 3 americans before , one is their boss , one is supplier engineer , the 3rd one is quality engineer . because this project was not prepared very well, our shanghai purchasing manager Mr Luo and I are both nervous , we were afraid that thing can not go as well as what we anticipated , because we gave the main part of this project to one of our suppliers , but the americans thought that it is our company to do the whole project , and they didn't know the reality , although we were going to claim this project and do the whole job by our own in future.
the americans are good-tempered and generally they are more polite than chinese ,I don't know why , I wonder if they are also so good in their own country . I enjoyed the process , I was able to practise my oral english by try to answer their questions.
I found it was not difficult to communicate with them , and my pronunciation is pretty good. they agreed that my english is very good. I am pround of it .and I kown my english need be polished by more practice.
I kept on working with them for 2 days, then they were led to the famous scenic spot of wuhan ,Yellow Crane Tower , obviously they enjoyed staying at this place and took some photos there,it was the second time I visited this tower ,the last time I went there before this time was about half a year ago ,I went to the yellow crane tower with partners from shanghai who also came to wuhan with these 3 americans this time . they enjoyed the chinese traditional style in architecture, and the peace of mind when they stood before those magnificent buildings.
I hope the project will go smoothly , this is the very important thing I care for.

五一来了

因为神龙放假时间很早,我们也可以因为神龙是我们的主要供应商而可以放十多天假.这对于我们来说是天大的喜事.
有许多事需要处理,一下子还不能闲下来.
我一直渴望有时间静下来,好仔细读读书.
因为大约一个月前,河南老家的堂哥希望我们能利用节假日见见面,我希望这个假日能回去,即使不能见到他,也可以见到父母兄弟.
尽管我被安排在29号值班,但我还是买了车票,在家呆2天,和家人团聚后马上回来.
自由真好!

life without faith is meaningless

life without faith is meaningless life without faith is meaningless

My Happy Spring Festival of 2007

there were so many people in the train ,which I took in the afternoon of Feb 17th, although the next day was spring festival ,chinese population is really a spectacular figure, we chinese can totally comprehend this reality by experiencing the crowded journey home . everything was ok during my journey, and it costed me about 5 hours to return to my hometown. I saw my parents and brother, our family reunited again, another unforgettable year ended.
looking back to the year just past, I can not say that I wasted my time and obtain nothing, some of my dreams has been realized during the last year,I has opportunity to use english in my work now, you know, I love this wonderful language, it has been giving me more and more happiness. without english ,my life would be different. my wage is enough for me to pay the mortgage of my house,in addition,it provides enough basic daily necessities , I should be thankful to the job I got at present . Wish I will always have a good job . of course the situation which I am in is a little complicated, and sometimes, I need good luck, of course , every one need it sometimes !

in the morning of Spring festival, I went out just as I have done every chinese new year's day, as usually I visited book store , the plaza,then I went to a cyber bar, where I checked my email, and tried to find out the method to send short message to lots of people by just send the message once, but failed finally, so I sent the message in another way , a very painstaking way. after all , I made it at last. But it is no excuse for me to improve my knowledge on how to communicate with other people by mobile phone more efficently. After about one hour, I went to railway station and bought my ticket used for returning back to Wuhan,I must make sure that I get the ticket in advance ,otherwise, there will be many inconvinences when I want to return there as scheduled.
the next day ,I got up at half past eight, waited before the TV to watch the NBA all-star basketball game , it was a little pity that Yao ming could not participate this game due to physical unfitness. and McGrady didn't play well, Kobe was the most valuable player in the match, it is very fair that finally he obtained the MVP. I read book in that afternoon.
the next day my brother and I went to RenMin Park, Brother took lots of photos for me , I also took a few photos for him , I think it is important to relax when a person is shot if he or she want to get a satisfied photos. :-) Brother persuaded me to try many games I had never tried before. and I felt good from some of these games. the most lucky thing is that the weather is perfect , it is sunny , lots of people went out to enjoy the happiness which is gifted by the holiday and the wonderful weather.

today I took several photos for Mum at the reservoir nearby, I have been taking photos for her for these 2 or 3 years, we did it just for celebrating & memorizing the unite. Tomorrow I will return to Wuhan, the experience of these days is precious for me and my parents and my brother.

I feel the loneliness

It is a very long time since I wrote something here last time. I am very pleased to be back :-)
I was busy these days, many things were waiting for me to do, I tried to complete them perfectly, although not all things developed just following my will, in fact ,from a specific point of view ,I am in a mess.
I feel no guilty , after all ,I always tried my best to make things going through all kinds of obstacles, which are surely there whenever we try to do something. :-*(
I was introduced to a girl by one of my neighbors a month earlier, I didn't want to meet her at first, because she was born in an area near Wuhan, and I dislike the dialect they used when the people who live in that area talk to each other. I speak mandarin,But she are able to speak mandarin , too. later I called her, I felt she always shows consideration to the person whom she talks to,I guessed she should be a nice girl. we dated on the next saturday , we met in a park, she is short , lovely,and one year younger than me. we dated another two times after the first date. we sent SMS each other, I always think of her these days.
Any subtle change of our behavior will influence our feeling, at least I think so. recently she is more indifferent to me than before, I feel bad. Chinese spring festival is coming, I left the company which I works for yesterday, when I return to my place, I am the only living thing in the house, I feel loneliness , the feeling likes something in your stomach is biting you , quite extraordinary and strange feeling :-(
Tomorrow I will go back to my hometown by train,my hometown is around 500 km away from this city , and surely 500 km away from her, *;-( I am not sure if we have a good future.
It was Feb 2006 when last time I left hometown and farewell my parents and brother, I will buy some gifts tomorrow morning and bring to them.
fireworks , explode for the new year!

a trip to shanghai

I went to shanghai to participate a training held in Dec. 26, this training is about how to use an online application ,which was a software used in the field of logistics. time for training was just one day, fortunately the trainer was a pretty young girl, her voice was sweet,and she kept on speaking ,it was a delightful thing to listen to her . I was not familiar with this city because this is my first time being there. our customer is a branch of an U.S. owned company . In shanghai ,people speak english more frequently. I also noticed that some areas were not prosperous ,just as stagnant as the suburban areas in wuhan. like most metropolis ,there are networks of subway , which make traveling within this city very convenient. before came back to wuhan , I went to shanghai arboretum, there was quiet and I really enjoyed staying there , I took several pictures there . during the days I stayed and traveled in shanghai , I felt the people there are very hostipitable, at least better than most people in wuhan .