I feel the loneliness

It is a very long time since I wrote something here last time. I am very pleased to be back :-)
I was busy these days, many things were waiting for me to do, I tried to complete them perfectly, although not all things developed just following my will, in fact ,from a specific point of view ,I am in a mess.
I feel no guilty , after all ,I always tried my best to make things going through all kinds of obstacles, which are surely there whenever we try to do something. :-*(
I was introduced to a girl by one of my neighbors a month earlier, I didn't want to meet her at first, because she was born in an area near Wuhan, and I dislike the dialect they used when the people who live in that area talk to each other. I speak mandarin,But she are able to speak mandarin , too. later I called her, I felt she always shows consideration to the person whom she talks to,I guessed she should be a nice girl. we dated on the next saturday , we met in a park, she is short , lovely,and one year younger than me. we dated another two times after the first date. we sent SMS each other, I always think of her these days.
Any subtle change of our behavior will influence our feeling, at least I think so. recently she is more indifferent to me than before, I feel bad. Chinese spring festival is coming, I left the company which I works for yesterday, when I return to my place, I am the only living thing in the house, I feel loneliness , the feeling likes something in your stomach is biting you , quite extraordinary and strange feeling :-(
Tomorrow I will go back to my hometown by train,my hometown is around 500 km away from this city , and surely 500 km away from her, *;-( I am not sure if we have a good future.
It was Feb 2006 when last time I left hometown and farewell my parents and brother, I will buy some gifts tomorrow morning and bring to them.
fireworks , explode for the new year!