who are you, where are you from

I don't know whether I have met you before?
I wonder if you are the one who I have lost 8 years ago
I want to tell you : you are beautiful just like you have never left and your age was frozen from the moment I lost you
don't want to lose you again although this time you are embodied
shall I be loyal to the first virgin or rediscover you by turning my attention to the others who are alike you?
maybe it is the spirit ,the same spirit that I shall catch up with
you still live in my life even you are far from me
even you disappear forever
may god forgive me
hope my opinion sacred
good bye forever
embrace you tightly

我们都是人啊！

为什么中国有人富得流油仍然膨胀着个人欲望，整几亿人民币一定很有成就感。
为什么你们这些穷苦的农民工，为了家里某个孩子能够上大学或为了给伤残的正在读寄宿小学的儿子治病，而一个又一个地离开家里，到城里打工，干着枯燥、危险、低工资的活。春节短暂的团聚后是多么令人心碎的分别，相信这是许多穷苦中国人的共同体会。
我们都是人，出来打工的嫂子不比那个富豪缺乏人之为人的良好秉性，也许就是老实了些吧，发财的点子少了些，在城市森林中，真正的弱肉强食，be lion or be sheep . but 我们不都是人么？构建立和谐社会！和谐在哪里啊！我们应该没有那么贫富差距的呀。
想想，现今有国力的国家为了争夺对资源的控制而频挑战争。什么生命不生命，什么平民受战争创伤，我们国家需要机器运转的汽油就足够做为下一轮战争的理由。想想这些，真的对人性本善越来越怀疑了。对了，今天听我们单位的同事说，最近有新房子出售，因为排队抢购的人太多，最后大家竟然打起来了，看来个人就是国家的缩影。 无语。

internet is much better than TV

why I say this? first and foremost, I are the master when I use computer . I tap the keys, I click the link with mouse, even when I am watching a movie, I can roll back or skip to a new section which I may be more interested in . on the contrary , I am a slave when I am watching TV if I stop selecting channels by using remote control , when I watching TV, everything is settled down by the the television station, what I can do is just to watch , I have no initiative to change anything except push the keys on the remote control . you want to see a section of the story which you have not understood just now, or want to make a copy after you encountering a wonderful movie? sorry , it is always too late, you'd better forget it ,just have a good dream.
second, TV programs are propaganda released by government , we should thank our government for providing us many wonderful entertainment with TV programs, but on the other hand , the information may be partial ,often try to cover some inconvenient truth . remember , a righteous mind need the cultivation of an open atmosphere , so don't be blind by prejudice , come to internet , to hear what other people who live on the opposite side of the planet say,it will give you a better and just views.

maybe nowadays' humanity is the victim of machines

we rely more and more on machines, more and more on electricity ,crude oil, petroleum ,gasoline . once we were able to live without so much energy consumption ,now we are almost utterly rely on them. with the exponential increase of population , our society is burdened by this upcoming energy crisis . we were able to travel and transport goods by carriage pulled by horses , oxen or donkeys centuries ago, now we are not willing to do these things without trucks , ships or aeroplanes, because with the lifestyle modification, our concepts for life had totally changed ,we need efficiency ,we can not tolerant delay , we plan this and plan that, everything is settled in the schedules or schemes , there are lots of thing waiting for us to do in line. with the crazy hasty and the always thirsty for more products to be manufactured , we are keeping on consuming more and more resources, some of which are almost empty now, such as crude oil, we are also keeping on consuming faster and faster , unless we find some ways to obtain new types of energy conveniently ,our destiny is doomed. so the ingenuity and creativity are the most important properties that we need to face and overcome this great challenge .
maybe we human being can get more peace of mind and happiness by being a little lazy , less competitive.
think of it !

get well along with people whom I will meet in the playground , I want to be your friend.

remember I was always energetic when I play basketball with others , maybe I care too much of lose or win , now I feel that I am not so young that I should still be too aggressive , I should pay more attention to enjoying the game , just like Jordan said in his thirties, :-) , of course I can never be so great like him in this field, he is the absolute hero and model for followers to admire and get courage .
let us enjoy the game, I want to be your friend after close match , I also can understand why some of them so aggressive , I will tell myself I used to be this kind of player, maybe they eager to demonstrate their youth and their vigor energy , this should be especially important to attract more young girls' eyeballs .
today I met two youths who live far away from the basket ball playground of New Jiang university , this place is the nearest playground they can reach , compare to them I am more lucky , it only takes me 10 minutes to arriving at this place from my house. I also noticed that a middle-age man drove a sedan here to play ball game , he looks healthy , good shape to him , obviously he doesn't need wealth any more :-)

I need change the layout of my entertainment room frequently to obtain a fresh feeling

it was around fall of 2003 , I lived with 8 colleagues in a rented apartment , I and Liu jianhu happened to share a bedroom in it , he is 3 years older than me , and he is friendly ,I think I was also very friendly at that time , he likes playing chinese chess, I was very poor at this game , he also enjoyed repairing all kind of devices and appliances , once he helped me to repair my electrical shaver which was almost deserted and I had already lost all my confidence to repair it, but he fixed it after a simple check , he is always good at it , and he is working in a maintenance department in our company. he liked to go out and have a look here and there when he was free then, he always invited me to go with him ,and he led me to all kinds of grocery stores, markets ,second-handed goods market, once we went into a second handed computer market, there were all kinds of machines and lots of people , I always dreamed of owning my own computer ,I bet he also was dying for it , so finally we discussed and made our mind to buy one together , I and Liu jianhu invested 400 RMB respectively and bought a low end computer , the vendor also agreed to offer us a desk to set up the computer which was free of charge, we took a texi and carried that precious machine back, after then we would always be very exciting every time we open it and made this or that programs run , later we make the computer on line , so we can surf internet and chat or play games online . later the period limit for renting the apartment was expired , and some of our roommates bought their own house, so we left that apartment to move in their own house or try to find the next renting apartment . as to how to deal with the computer which we bought together about half a year ago, I gave 400 RMB to Liu jianhu and obtain the ownership ,later ,after I accumulating enough money ,I change lots of the components of this old machine , and bought 2 better desks to place the machine, the machine tends to absorb dust , so about every 2 weeks the computer and desks need to be cleaned, I am a little lazy , sometimes I will neglect them .
today my mood is not perfect , I stare at them ,I told myself I need change it somehow, otherwise I can not even breath, so after about an hour , the new layout appeared, my heart gets a little light , it is ok. :-)

回到武汉

在家呆了5天,今天我又回到了武汉,25号在售票窗口下定回家决心的原因是想和父母哥哥团聚一下而已,内心有点不希望回去,但这几天在家还是感受到父母兄长的关心,虽有不如意的地方,总的来说还是很有价值的.我和爸说话不多,但关系很融洽,他让我给他剃头,还是全部剃光的那种,在我一个手扶着爸的头,一手推剃刀去他那白发夹杂的头发时,我感觉到父子亲情,父亲让我给他办了龙卡,说是夏天要带积攒的两万块钱和妈一块过来装修铺底板.妈还是往常一样,希望我在家能吃好,还非常希望我能找到女朋友,早点结婚.哥还是喜欢打麻将,我接到很多找他的电话,都是麻将方面的事,今天本来说送我上车的,结果一个电话过来,他还是去打麻将了,这似乎是哥的唯一爱好,家人都拿他没法,希望哥能早日觉悟,为未来做打算才是.到网吧查了两次邮箱,知道武汉这边有工作方面的事情进展的不顺利,我今天已经到了武汉,需要赶快解决.
前天在家看电视剧频道的一个爱情题材的电视剧<<为爱结婚>>,片中扮演陆弥的那个演员不知道叫什么,当时我看的是李亚鹏扮演的子冲为了帮助他深爱的陆弥恢复记忆,放弃工作,放弃出国的机遇,顶着自己家里的反对和陆弥家人的不理解,为了爱,到深山老林抓萤火虫那集,当他们坐在屋梁上放萤火虫的时候,感觉真是太浪漫了,这才是真爱吧,也许真爱确实存在,爱就是愿意为对方付出,付出时间,精力,付出爱.结果今天我在火车上,对面做的一个女孩,就特别想陆弥,也许女孩的相貌分几个类型,她们正好属同一个类型,很幸运,但是还是不是太象,否则她会考电影学院的.