I need more chance to find my gf

I think it is important to get more opportunities to meet more girls , so as to get more possibility of finding my future girlfriend and wife.
I should not spend all my time at home alone when I am free, is it called self-closing? I confirmed that I fit this category after one of my colleagues spoke it out , before then I only guess so sometimes.
Be brave to meet the girl tomorrow , everything will be ok .
Be my girlfriend or have no further contact , I can accept all results, just try it and do an effort on it .

why can't I always concentrate my mind , curiosity lost?

I can't figure out why I can not focus my mind on a particular thing and keep it for a fairly long time . always feel tired.
what is the destination and ultimate purpose ? ha, too much consideration about the meaning of life, not a good symbol for a youth, am I youth ? surely I am . ^_^
today is father's day , is my father happy today? I have no courage to tell him that I love him from the very bottom of my heart. I don't want to say too much thing about my father here, every time I think of him , my eyes tend to be wet .
last week an indian called me ,I picked up the phone to answer him, but the quality of the voice was bad, I can not hear him clearly, I wonder what I should do when he call me next time.
Liang li is good girl, really good. she deserve my attention. at least she is better than lots of girls and women around me.

I should be honest

Why I can not let her know what I am thinking of
Have I let her know what is my true meaning
Can I hurt another girl's self-esteem in the end by sending a misleading signal to her causally

call from mum

妈今天打来电话，开门见山问我对象谈得怎么样了，我好像要有意气她，说我没说过我要谈啊，刚说完就觉得不该说这句话的，然后她说她给我联系了一个，对方姑娘现在和我一个厂的，然后问我觉得怎么样，我本来就不喜欢这个女的，倒不是她怎么不好，只是觉得我不会跟她结婚生活的。我也不知道对方到底怎么样，没有接触太多，只是在冲压车间干久了的，我都不大敢谈，想想那种环境，那种噪音。我跟妈解释原因，她应该很失望，但语气不是烦躁，也不是失望，而是一种淡淡的无奈，无力多言的感觉。她说哥也不结婚，哥还对她发火，我也不结婚，他们都这么老了，以后会怎么样？我觉得应该承担起责任了，不能总是这样过单身生活，父母还盼着报孙子呢。I always leave my hope to tomorrow, but what time can it be realized ? I should take action ,otherwise my life will be filled with terror and unhappiness. it is time to made up my mind and find a girl ,an ordinary girl to get married. it is time .

fedora 7 , an amazing platform, deserves your try

yesterday night I kept my emule working in order to complete downloading iso image file of Fedora 7 , this unix operating system is just tested and released by red hat , because I am using Fedora 6 , I care for the updated version keenly, wish there will be something to surprise me, this morning the iso image has been downloaded via emule , then I burned it to a DVD disk, after about half an hour ,the installation was finished, the style of interface of logging on follows that of Fedora 6, the main color is blue , there are balloons floating among the white clouds , which represents freedom and infinity , after logging on , I found most of the icons have been updated , and system notified me to update lots of programs , everything is fine. I don't know whether it is a disillusion , I really enjoy the videos and music played under Fedora system , I prefer them to that under Windows system , for instance , when I see a movie with xine which is a non-free software under Fedora system ,the landscape seems more spectacular than the images after the file is decoded and presented by storm player or windows media player, maybe the crew of Fedora have their secret weapons . really great!