on wedding

why so many wedding repeated again and again in the same way?
is each groom and bride really enjoy the procedure?

I think we should keep our dignity in all situations. we should have a light heart in wedding , meanwhile don't forget to keep your dignity. it can works.

Jack is very interesting

Jack is special, I definitely think so. he is always showing his prudence and carefulness to every details. he belongs to the category of people who care much to the overall situation.
I need explain why we are going to give up the devil 417192, I must consult this to Mr. Wu and the person who are working in tools& setup department and quality department first , only when they either have no other better proposal or suggestion , will I be permitted to reply to EATON formally by email and tell them what is our attitude for this core plate. Jack, you are right! thank you .

today is great

I learned several concepts about statistical mechanics , it is great.

the girl whom I once deeply loved got married（为了忘却的纪念）

it is really a long story for me , I don't know whether she cares much about this feeling I always have.
I met her when I was 18 in Hubei Normal University , she should be born in that city and grew up there, the city is not an very ideal place for living , but she lived in a developmental zone far away from our college where the environment was awesome , I used to like going there by bike after recognizing her parents lived there , that area was called TuanChengShan .
It was really unbelievable that I didn't even notice her existence until it was my second year of living and studying there. I don't remember from what time I began to pay attention to her, maybe I hadn't any feeling at first , but I fell in love with her around 1998 , she didn't know at first , and I believe she didn't love me , I am too stupid , but who can blame a person who was in love, loving somebody is always an unexplainable phenomenon, it happened only because there was some kind of chemical reaction involved, one rational person could lose his common sense then. I was exactly that unfortunate person at that time . I cared much about her , I cared about everything about her, I wanted to know what was her thought about me, I hoped she could go out with me , I felt really blue when she denied my invitation again and again. I hoped that I could do something that could make her appreciating me ,love me even just a little bit. she was the heroine of my diary during that period of time. my whole heart were just beating for her. what I got was denial ,once , the second time , the third time, ......, again and again. maybe she punished me because I had once told another girl that I LIKE that girl , maybe she thought I was not active enough.
after our graduation after summer of 1999, we departed , she went to GuangDong and became a teacher in a private school there, I went to XianTiao PengChang and became a chemistry teacher. I thought she was forgetting me , I told myself I should forget her as soon as possible, but her image lingered and I was just unable to wipe her image out from my brain. I became delirious , I felt painful when I did almost anything due to the inescapable thinking of her and the deep sadness of being aware of the indifference from her. It was a nightmare for me during that wretched 2 years. I wrote several letters to her, and she replied to me several times, but I could tell that she didn't care too much about me, every time I received a letter from her , I replied to her immediately ,then wait a long time wishing I would receive her letter soon, but it didn't happen . At last I burned my diary and quit the job of being a teacher in Pengchang . I didn't know what I would do next, what I was sure of at that time was that I was definitely painful , if I continued living like that, I would be a mad man in the end.
life is not easy for everyone who is living in China . don't dreaming all days, open your eyes to see and live in the reality!
After I returned to my hometown, ShiYan , I thought naively that I would became a teacher in a school and resumed getting my salary every month. the fact was that I never became a teacher after March,2001 .
I once got an opportunity to work in Guangzhou, this city was attracting me , she lived there , she was the magnet. I also wanted to work there to improve my oral english , she was also very good at english, she is living in US now. the opportunity of practicing speaking would much more there, so after a period of time preparation, I went to Guangzhou in sumer of 2001, I finally got a chance to meet her again, I just want to be closer to her, I just want to be with her. I kept on working there in a hotel very busily, almost 7 days a week, I was satisfied that I and she were living in the same city ,experiencing the same weather, isn't it fantastic?
my job in that hotel couldn't last long, finally I must say good-bye to this city, but I hadn't even met her yet! I had to see her before my leaving. I asked for one-day leave , and went to the school where she was working , and I didn't told her that I would like to meet her in that particular day, maybe it was impolite by going directly to her school, but after all I only want to see her before I left, she should forgive me for this reason. the journey there was something like a pilgrimage , it was one of unforgettable experiences and my cherished memories. I enjoyed the whole processes except the sad end. it was in the twilight when she finally showed herself. you know what, as soon as she saw me , she told me immediately "let me show you the way home", did you know, you cruel creature, I came to your place far away from the hotel ,only wish I could stay with you for a little while, but you told me this,you were so cold and cruel! I sat in the seat of the bus home like a dad man with his last breathe , I were totally submerged in melancholy , I didn't want to accept the truth, but it seemed to me that I had no other choice.
she was the only girl (besides my family )who I truly loved until now. she could turn me on, she was the magic and miracle for me. Although time can change anything. she got married in this September , thousands of good wishes to you , my true love. I must forget you , I must thank you for you having influenced me so deeply. I also hate you due to the hurt you had done to me. you are my elf ， life with you and without you will be completely different. I wrote these words to forget you.

national day ,2007

I feel time passing by so fast.It seems last national day just past yesterday.
I relieved by receiving telephone call from home. I know there are someones remember me in other corner of this planet.
I felt loneliness this morning, I didn't recover until the call from home.
I believe my relation with Liu shuang has ended .
Tomorrow I will go to MinSheng bank to give a formal report of lost of card. I hope I will reclaim that 20K CNY ASAP.